A new me?

Oh dear. My brain has stopped working. I am suddenly struggling to post a blog. I have only posted two in May so far and the last one was ten days ago. 'Struggling', I hear you say - I know, I know - I am writing now but am I saying anything? I have started writing this in the hope that inspiration will follow, but there is no guarantee, and you will be the judge of my success or not.

So, the last ten days - it has been pretty busy really. In summary, went back to London, did 3 days solid work, had a fantastic weekend with my wife, returned to France, got stuck into the renovation again, and it has rained every single day, both in London and here in Carcassonne. That sounds terribly bland, but actually it was all really good, apart from the rain, that is.

I am very happy and very excited that a second round of funding has been successfully raised for the company that I 'look after' in London. Firstly, it means that I have been paid for the first time in three months which is one great big enormous relief, to say the least. Secondly, it means that the project can progress, which will be fantastic for everyone in the entire world - I kid you not - the product under development is that good, but you will just have to wait and see to understand the magnitude of my claim. The important thing is that the project is back up and running and suppliers have been briefed and commissioned and initial agreements have been negotiated and signed.

The MD of the business keeps referring to me as her 'caped FD' - you'd have to ask her for an explanation but it is rather flattering to be thought of as some sort of superhero - and I don't mean that in any grandiose, inflated ego sort of way, because I have spent a good deal of the last two years putting myself down and thinking that I am not worthy - I have suffered a crisis of confidence in myself which led to a fairly self-destructive downward spiral.....but not any more. No more with the negative vibes. I know that this product will come to market and be a success. I know that the renovation will be completed on time and be fully booked from the start. I just know it, because I know that any problems along the way can be overcome and will be overcome - how sickeningly smug and positive is that - it is the new me.